1. YM CONVERSATION
Me: you know what they say, true love is when you could never have them, and still be happy for them
Him: Who said that ?
Me: me
Him: Ouch
Me: yeah, it hurts.. but im fine
Him: Is it okay if were like best friends
Me: sure
Him: Last kiss forever :*
Me: huh ?
Him: Last kiss my dear :*
me: i hope its real
Last message received on 10/06 at 13:43
2. OLD POST FROM BLOG *CUT*
i dont know if it's either after or before the sing-a-long but i remembered the moment perfectly : you touched a strand of my hair, and you played with it.. then i said "what ?!" great i just ruined the moment haha.. and another time, i think it's after the sing-a-long you hold my left hand, for around 13 seconds or so (haha good counting), and we stare at each other.. it was perfect.. i cant even let go of your hand... its like maybe, our hands knew that this is the last time it'll ever touched...
3. YM CONVERSATION (2)
Him: Is it okay if I break up ?
Him: Just be friends
Me: why ?
Him: Nah just kiddin'
Me: you almost made me cry in an instant you know
Him: Why are girls so sensitive ?
Me: i dont know, ask allah, the one who created us..
Him: And if we were bout to break up I know the rEason
Me: what ?
Him: Some and most of my guy friends even Emir say kita nggak pantes
Me: yeah, and you're gonna let that ruin our relationship
Him: Some of my 40persent
And yet my parents said like this to me "you could do better" [and that's what my mom said
Him: I'm sorry
Him: I don't get it
Me: so youre gonna break up with me now ?
Him: I need ur speech and lecture first
Me: why would you need it anyway
Him: I'm sorry just for an agreement
Me: look, i dont want to break up with you.. but if you want then, we can
Him: And you still got like another crush on another guy
Me: i never have a crush on another guy, except you.. why would you think of that ?
Him: I dunoo for a fair way to break up
Me: so you have a crush on another girl
Him: 40 persent
Me: then go on break up with me or something
Him: How could I ?
BUZZ!!!
Me: you could
Him: But then ur gonna hate me
Me: i'm not gonna hate you
Him: Wanna make a commitment?
Me: what commitment ?
Him: If were not married till were 30 then we could be backups
Me: back-ups ?
Him: yup
Me: i dont think we can
Him: Maybe
Him: So......we best friends ?
Me: i dont know now.. i need some time to think
ME NOW = does he still remember the commitment thingie?
THE GIRL : i know who she is (i 99% know who), i'm not gonna say her name here.. i'm not gonna hate her either... but well you know
HIM : like i said i'm not gonna hate him... but you know, deep down i still say : 'HEY, YOU'RE GONNA REGRET THIS SOMEDAY !' hey i have to stay true to myself right.. youre gonna have karma because of what you did !
and now.. i guess karma really does happen.
we are what we are. we cannot change what God wants us to be.
i just hope that there's a time machine to rewind (NOT FIX) all those times...
oh god.. :''(