reach for the sky -woody

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Wednesday, December 15, 2010

to love is to destroy.... *based on true stories in my sadly tragic 'then' life*

1. YM CONVERSATION


 

Me: you know what they say, true love is when you could never have them, and still be happy for them

Him: Who said that ?

Me: me

Him: Ouch

Me: yeah, it hurts.. but im fine

Him: Is it okay if were like best friends

Me: sure

Him: Last kiss forever :*

Me: huh ?

Him: Last kiss my dear :*

me: i hope its real


 

Last message received on 10/06 at 13:43


 

2. OLD POST FROM BLOG *CUT*


 

i dont know if it's either after or before the sing-a-long but i remembered the moment perfectly : you touched a strand of my hair, and you played with it.. then i said "what ?!" great i just ruined the moment haha.. and another time, i think it's after the sing-a-long you hold my left hand, for around 13 seconds or so (haha good counting), and we stare at each other.. it was perfect.. i cant even let go of your hand... its like maybe, our hands knew that this is the last time it'll ever touched...


 

3. YM CONVERSATION (2)


 

Him: Is it okay if I break up ?

Him: Just be friends

Me: why ?

Him: Nah just kiddin'

Me: you almost made me cry in an instant you know

Him: Why are girls so sensitive ?

Me: i dont know, ask allah, the one who created us..

Him: And if we were bout to break up I know the rEason

Me: what ?

Him: Some and most of my guy friends even Emir say kita nggak pantes

Me: yeah, and you're gonna let that ruin our relationship

Him: Some of my 40persent

And yet my parents said like this to me "you could do better" [and that's what my mom said

Him: I'm sorry

Him: I don't get it

Me: so youre gonna break up with me now ?

Him: I need ur speech and lecture first

Me: why would you need it anyway

Him: I'm sorry just for an agreement

Me: look, i dont want to break up with you.. but if you want then, we can

Him: And you still got like another crush on another guy

Me: i never have a crush on another guy, except you.. why would you think of that ?

Him: I dunoo for a fair way to break up

Me: so you have a crush on another girl

Him: 40 persent

Me: then go on break up with me or something

Him: How could I ?

BUZZ!!!

Me: you could

Him: But then ur gonna hate me

Me: i'm not gonna hate you

Him: Wanna make a commitment?

Me: what commitment ?

Him: If were not married till were 30 then we could be backups

Me: back-ups ?

Him: yup

Me: i dont think we can

Him: Maybe

Him: So......we best friends ?

Me: i dont know now.. i need some time to think


 

ME NOW = does he still remember the commitment thingie?


 

THE GIRL : i know who she is (i 99% know who), i'm not gonna say her name here.. i'm not gonna hate her either... but well you know

HIM : like i said i'm not gonna hate him... but you know, deep down i still say : 'HEY, YOU'RE GONNA REGRET THIS SOMEDAY !' hey i have to stay true to myself right.. youre gonna have karma because of what you did !


 

and now.. i guess karma really does happen.

we are what we are. we cannot change what God wants us to be.

i just hope that there's a time machine to rewind (NOT FIX) all those times...

oh god.. :''(